My life in Poo

I love this thing

Ok. Is there a website that tells Epileptics NOT to see a movie? I took my daughter, Drew and Andy to see the first showing of the movie 9 yesterday. (It was AWESOME BTW) There was only one little problem. I have photosensitive Epilepsy. Flashing lights can trigger bad seizures for me. So there is this scene where the Machine takes the Body of number 2 and puts a creature in it that flashes lights and takes over the. . . rag dolls??? So the first volley of flashing with number 8 I survived. When it got number 1, it felt like someone hit me with a baseball bat in the back of my head, and I got up and ran out of the theatre. Lydia was there with Drew and Andy. When I knew the flashing was over, I went back in. I sit down and my little 6 year old daughter turned to me and said "Mommy you are SUCH a sissy la la." I thought Andy was going to choke on his tongue to keep from laughing to loud at me. When we were leaving I asked him, "Is there a website or something that can warn epileptics about this shit?" and he laughed and said, "Yeah, there's an app for that."

Fuckers.

But the movie was AWESOME and the graphics were pretty image heavy. Imagine how to explain to my 6 year old why there are dead bodies all over the place. But my kid RAWKZ and got it. She never even hid her face, and there were some pretty scary images in there!

I had been thinking about getting the tree of life tattoo, but I realize that my life has had too much to do with Death to get a tattoo representitive of life.

My sister died of Chemotherapy poisoning at age 12 and I was q14.

My gran Vining died of Pneumonia and Altzheimers when I was in college and I found out I had Lupus.

Found out I have something called Marphan's Syndrome. Basically, the connectve tissue in the heart is weak, and creates a Murmur and the older you get the worse it gets. My Cardiologist Dr. Lakireddy chewed my ass out when he found out I get pregnant the second time (Which is why I got my tubes burned and tied).

I have Epilepsy, which basically means I Cant swim or even take a BATH alone for the rest of my life. YAY SHOWERS!!!!!!!!

My grandfather Ellington died of altzheimers, and my father's family had a Early Dementia history.

I have had MANY different health problems. Breast Mastectomy, shoulder surgery, fibros cysts, a family history of breast cancer and cervical cancer. Plus juvenile Osteosarcoma from my sister and my dad has had several growths removed and my grandfather Ellington and HIS father had skin cancer. Great grandpa ellington died from it.

Mayhap I am just being morbid since I ahve had a killer migraine for the last 2 days and I cant got get a toridol shot from the Hospital without it costing a bigillion dollars. Maybe I am being morbid because I just paid $175 for my Depakote RX for my seizure disorder. Whatever. But here is my Idea.

How about getting a tat of my last EKG as my Tramp Stamp? It would be cool, and I don't think I have ever seen it done. I KNOW that people have gotten tats of heart monitor lines, but I mean ALL the lines. OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Maybe the EKG when I flat lined. Back when I had my first BIG seizure, I flatlined for a few seconds. Which Prolly is the EXP for a lot of what I go through these days. Brain failure or damage. What ever.